Butterflies

At this very moment, I'm sitting in the waiting room in a hospital in Eastern Idaho while Brian has ACL surgery.  This is the third surgery he's had that we've been together for and I wouldn't change that for the world.  Although we have a lot going on in our lives right now, it's so much fun to go through it with him.  Marriage is a really interesting thing.  

There are times when you don't want your spouse to say a word to you and times when you can't wait to hear their voice.  There are times when it's so hard to get along with another person all of the time and times when you realize how lucky you are to have that specific person in your life.  There are times when you want them to do exactly what they're not doing and times when they give you what you need and you didn't realize it.

Lately, and especially today, I'm grateful for Brian.  I'm happy that, after being married for a year and a half, I'm still amazed by the type of person that he is.  I'm happy that I'm the one person who gets to listen to Brian's complaints, joys, troubles, and excitements.  I"m happy that I'm the one who gets to wait for hours while he's in surgery and take care of him after.

I wrote him a poem for Valentine's Day this year and, since he's knocked out and can't say anything, I"m going to share it.

Date after date, day after day,

I watched you watching me

Stealing my heart one smile at a time,

I’d laugh and hoped you would see

That holding your hand and kissing your cheek

Gave me some sort of happiness

That I’d never felt but I had waited for;

A feeling I didn’t want to miss

That feeling still remains when you wink at me,

Or when you smile and look into my eyes

After all this time, almost two years later,

You give me butterflies

When we first met, I had no idea

How much I had left to grow

I thought I had it down, thought I was just fine

But little did I know

That you were there to teach me how to be patient

How to laugh through any tough trial

How to forgive quickly and forget even faster

How to wake up every day with a smile

I can’t wait to see what there is next

For me to learn from you and I

All I can tell for now is

You’re turning me into a butterfly

We talked about it often and daydreamed together

Never knowing the day would soon come

That we would prepare for a huge change,

Possibly our own little one

Doctors and pictures in black and white,

Waiting for her little kicks

She loves you so much, I can’t wait to see

How you turn into best friends so quick

I wanted a girl and you did too

And I think I’ve figured out why

For a precious daughter to call you Daddy,

Our little butterfly